Awake

Capture tomorrow on the tip of my tongue

You tell me I say you name sweetly

As if each letter is your own lullaby

I only laugh and try to remain balance

Teeter side to side along a brick wall

For walls are the only things keeping me up

If I reach up on my tiptoes

I might be able to grab the sun

You try for me and I watch you struggle

Clawing at the brick watching me with wide panicked eyes

As though I am falling and you are trying to catch me

Or maybe you see

That a part of me is fading into the skyline

For dreams deserve to float and fly

So I close my eyes and tilt my head back

Arms open, pondering maybe this is the time

For me to learn to fly

I can’t rely on gravity to show me the way

Can’t rely on you to be the best option for me

Maybe it is time for me to redefine these boundaries

I can hear the roar of your complaints and pleas

Rocking on my heels, I feel the sky pull me back

You hit the wall and crumple to the ground

I tried to tell you that lullabies are meant for sleeping

And I am ready to be awake