Monday, October 15, 2012

Sun

Glaring
It eyes me
I cannot hide
Exposed
My secrets are bared
Pins me down under its rays
Judgment isn’t the only thing that burns
Scathing is it ridicule
The sun glowers from its throne
I am another ant to be roasted
Scurry, scurry searching
For a crack to slip into
I want to hide
Shivering
Secrets uncovered
Glaring down
With rays prying you open
I curl up, covering eyes
Wishing for darkness
Away from the sun

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Thunder and Lightning

Flash and boom
Rips open the sky
Shatters the calm
Blinding in force
Crying, I am left
Knees buckled
Lost in my pain
Hollow, I feel myself
Caving into the crashes
Thunder rattles my spine
Lightning breaks open the scars
I feel it all flooding in
Tears pooling into my palms
The sadness comes with the bursts
Pain screams with each rumble
And I remember it all
Remember the goodbyes, the fights
Bitter endings and faltered beginnings
Disconnected, and coiling g around me
Within thunder and lightning,
Depression waits me
Within thunder and lightning,
Ravens swarm, cackling
Lost in my ache
Wrap myself up in grief

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Wind

Howl louder than you
Fury will wrap around me
Pushing you away
Swirling around, around
This argument will escalate
In a flurry of words and growls
Emotions will rush
Shoving you away from me
You will not touch me
For the wind is my ally
And I will run run away
With speed and howling
Rattling the trees
And your words are nothing but leaves
Scattered across the floor
You try to brace yourself
Dust, my emotions
Will dig into your eyes
Leaving you crying, me growling
Whirling whirling is this pain
You will bend under my force
Until you break
Unable to stand
For my anger will pound against you
Curled to a ball, you will be
Standing taller and stronger
My goodbye will slap against your back
As my rage follows me out the door
Slamming it shut, leaving your world
Caught in a whirlwind of pain

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Earthquake

Crumbling down
Seek safety in a doorway
I feel the walls shake
Falling falling under your gaze
Warmth in your smile
Left my world trembling
Splintering and breaking apart reasoning
Wave after wave, nerves carrying this seismic activity
And I am quaking for your touch
Unable to speak
Unable to hold my balance
Gripping onto the doorway, knuckles white
Gaze to the floor, focusing
Quivering lips, wavering breath
I am in the doorway you have just crossed
Clutching your arm you stop
Looking at each other
You know what I can’t say
Pulling me close
Tumbling, crumbling are these walls
Heart tremors
Love has come and shook my world upside down

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Snow

Frozen
Resentment settles in bones
Cold, I will become the snow
Blank is bitterness
And the horizon is colorless
Grinding teeth, frustration powders skin
Fists locked, my gaze icy
Envy is not green in anyway
I will consume this world
Small flurries are my words
A jealousy whiteout consumes thoughts
Storming are my actions
And I will bury you
Under the drifts of white
Layers of pain and spite
I always wanted your life
The ease and grace that came so freely
Everything I have had has a price
My conscious or my soul
Mouth dry and breaths icing my lungs
A small blizzard I will become
Offended by your sight
A dark blemish on my perfect white horizon

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Hurricane

Never know when it will hit
Until it touches down
Then singlehandedly
It rips up all your security and confidence
Twirls it around and around
You are spinning and flying
Unable to breathe, but you remember
How it felt for air to rush in
How it felt to be alive
Flapping your arms, you hope you can get your bearings
Without such a slow strumming ache
Loneliness has come in the spring
People scurry away in the horizon
With packed up station wagons and I feel alone
In a room full of people laughing
Trying to remember what it was like to be in the open
And not partnered in your shadow
This hurricane of emotions
Send the pictures flying off the walls
Tattered and torn is this heart
Caught in the calm, in the eye of the storm
Before all the hurt settles in
Loneliness is a quiet rage that has no words
To explain the screaming
Standing with the world spiraling
Insecurity roaring in my ears
Pain slamming into my soul
I am alone in this storm

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